a NEW blog!

Hi all, if you happen to be one of my readers (and happen to still check this blog that I never update!) I've moved my blog to a new home please stop over and check it out! It's cool, it's new, it's sleek!!

Things to do while job hunting

1. Start a new book, or two, or three ...
2. Clean the cats litter box.
3. Play with the cats, pet the cats, groom the cats, hold the cats (It is all about the cats).
4. Catch up on laundry.
5. Catch up on dishes.
6. Become violently ill and spend nearly 20 consecutive hours in bed sleeping.
7. Write silly lists
8. Paint your nails.
9. Catch up on all the cleaning.

Why my family and friends ROCK!

I think it goes without saying, I have been depressed about being downsized out of my job. Fortunately for me, my family and friends are making this transitional period (transitional period sounds way cooler than unemployment) much more bearable. I'm so grateful I have such wonderful family and friends.

Queen Megan and the BAD Day!

Today has been a no good, very bad, rotten day! Well, it actually started yesterday. I had nightmares. I’m not talking about my normal run of the mill “Cookie Monster is trying to eat my brain” nightmares. Oh no, these were the “Your family hates you, you have to save your nephews from aliens, you are being cut into small chunks by your loved ones, you can’t breathe!” nightmares. Then I made a big mistake and decided to try and watch “The Brave One” with Jodie Foster. Sad movie, I cried.But what really takes the cake is today at 9:50 my boss walks over to me and ask me if we can meet in the conference room on the other side. I panic at first thinking I’m going to be released but then I see him approach another employee and also ask him to join us in the meeting room so I relax thinking it’s probably a special project. I get to the meeting room and there are five other employees (not including myself). Our boss along with the CEO of the company enter the meeting room and inform us that the company isn’t profitable and that the ‘Investors’ demand the company become profitable. To make this happen they are doing a workforce reduction and we are all being let go effective immediately. The ‘silver-lining’ of this little rain cloud (as they put it) is that we are all eligible for Unemployment. Hooray!

So, while I try to keep from bawling (failing miserably I might add) I have to clean my desk out while my once co-workers look on with sympathy or offer to help and try to console. I’m sick to my stomach I’m so upset. Jake keeps telling me not to beat myself up but I can’t help but think if I was better, smarter, faster, anything OTHER than what I am this wouldn’t be happening to me.

I’m sick with worry about money, my future, and what I am going to do. I’m also terrified about what impact this is going to have on my depression. My depression is something I struggle with every day. I can’t help but think of a million reasons I should just give up.So! To cope with all of this emotion I am going to go scrub the tub, toilet, cat … anything I can get my hands on. Cleaning helps me feel a little less hopeless and right now I need any glimmer of hope I can scare up.

Blech!

I feel so horrible today. I've been trying to figure out how to load the pictures and make slideshows so I can post pictures and things just aren't going well. On top of that, I'm so exhausted. I just feel miserable! So much for catching up on my blogging this weekend.

Queen Megan and the Draper Days Rodeo!

I apologize this post is mega-ultra late! I blame it on the phantom cat (I'll explain this some other day). Now! Back to the rodeo!

On Friday the 18th of July Jake and I attended the Draper Days Rodeo with my Mom, Dad, Gabe, Caleb and Eli. We had so much fun! Gabe fearlessly entered the 'Cash Calf' contest where he and 30-40 other children chased a calf wearing a coat with money on it around the arena.

Because this post is so late I'm just going to slap my favorite pictures in (I swear I'll come up with better looking images/stuffs later. For now tell me do you like a larger size? Medium? Smaller? Also do you want links or not so much? I'd love input!)

A Small Request

The family of my dear friend Aubrey is a 2nd family for me. I love the Peterson family. They always make me feel warm, welcome and happy. Jenny, Aubrey’s mom, has battled Breast Cancer for over 12 years. Two weeks ago, more tumors were discovered throughout her body and her doctors began chemotherapy immediately.

I feel scared, sad, and useless. I don’t know what words to say to comfort and encourage. All I can do is offer my prayers and support. So, I put this request to you, please keep Jenny and the Peterson family in your prayers. If you are capable please add their names to the temple prayer roll and include them in your fast Sunday prayers.

Thanks to everyone for their support and prayers.